The crazy beginning

So this is my first blog post in a very long time, i do believe that as of right now there is no one reading this blog but i'm ok with that. I must give credit where credit is due and say that this new blog is thanks to an inspiration from another blog - Jamie the very worst missionary - in that i read hers and cant help but love the honesty and think about all the things that i want to say and then don't. so maybe that'll change a bit here.

So i'm getting married in less than four months to an amazing man! and as excited about that as i am it also scares the crapola out of me too! There are so many things to plan and to think about and thats just for the wedding, not including all the stuff to do afterwards, the changing my name on everything. the taxes and the moving in together. there is so much to do and sometimes it see all too overwhelming.

I'm trying to finish my last two weeks of school... pick up a bunch more hours at work and plan a wedding! there are days when i just want to sit down and cry (and sometimes i do) because there is so much going on and i feel pulled in every direction. There are days when i think that i'm going to completely fall apart because there it something pulling each of my limbs in a different direction and its about to be too much!

There are days where it is just too much. sometimes i dont know how to handle it. It makes me crazy and then i do stupid things that end poorly.

Sigh... so i'm hoping that in 3 weeks once classes are done for the summer that all of this calms down, and maybe gets a little easier to handle.